Subterfuge

Yesterday I wanted to jump off a cliff
today I'm glad I didn't
Remember those times I said I was fine?
Well I never was

I just didn't want you to know
of all the battles I had to pull through
Like staying alive and facing the day
and walk with a smile, looking okay

Your words left me fingerprints
they're cut into my soul
But I tried to be strong
without letting it show

And now I'm seeing scattered moments
playing on repeat inside
Along with frozen sights of crying
wishing you could make me die

But when you feel like giving up
thinking you're not strong enough
Gather your strengts and try to get by
for tomorrow can only get better

And you'll be the angel
high in the sky
or a colorful butterfly
soaring up high

- youlis 2006